Well... At least it want two years this time around! Last time I visited you all I had just gotten married and was... Well... What I thought was happy... Not quite a year later as I sit on my sisters porch in the cold blustery stupid Texas weather.... I find myself in the middle of a divorce, lacking motivation, and trying desperately to keep from drowning in my own thoughts. Crazy... Yes... Completely. I can't help but wonder where the depression comes from... The truth is life is pretty good.... Outside the fact that I lost my precious grandmother two years ago in January and I'm completely lost without her. No tears about the divorce thing folks... Another lesson well learned... Big things cone in small packages... Big lies big tempers big cheats and big addictions. None of which I care to have BIG quantities of in my life.. Enough said. I retired, or so I thought I did a few months ago... But will be going back to the corporate world after the holidays. I have discovered that I now have much more home than I can handle... Physically and financially, and if I wanna stay there... I have no choice but to go back to work... You see, I purchased My grandmother's home from her estate when she passed. All 4325 square feet of it... Now I get why she had a maid three days a week. I haven't been sitting around being lazy.... Although I must admit that I do have my down days... I was turned on to machine embroidery by my sister and I am now a sewing addict... We have a small spot at Emily's Jims gallery in downtown Bryan tx, and I have spent the last several months working feverishly to stock it for the holidays. That'd be the topic for my next post 😊 Most days I find myself at the sewing machine 12-16 hours a day.. This weekend we had an open house that ended up being a total dud because it stormed ALL freakin day 😠 on a good note, I'm with my sister.. Who always seems to comfort me... Definitely much needed girl time... My sister has not been feeling we'll either and I have to say that neither of us did much to motivate the other yesterday... And... I was supposed to drive home today.. But alas, the blustery weather soon changed that to a no go. I've lain on the couch for most of the day with the exception of a quick trip to town for a late lunch and a quick in and out at the fabric store. I tried to lay back down and rest... But rest escapes me now as I cannot get the thoughts of what I should be doing out of my head. Taking care of my body, and my mind as well as my daily responsibilities.. By damn it.... I AM a star.... But I'm sure not acting like one 😕 time to make a change and as MJ would say... Im starting with the (wo)man in the mirror.... Ready for a road trip?
